. 说不出的悲伤 .

那个书桌，我肯定不会拿走，就让它在哪儿度过一辈子吧。。那个书桌的回忆，太令人伤心。。

刻着的歌词，也属于4年前4月2日的痛。原来回忆是那么痛苦、难忘的。。
都不知流了多少夜的泪、喝了不知多少的酒~写下这些的时候，也刚是他离开我的第三个星期六。。不，是他背叛我的第三个星期六。。
 

这是你离开的第三个星期六
面包我吃了两口
啤酒还剩半升
香烟我还是一包接一包地抽
你搬走了以后
我还会常常在你住的公寓底下
等你下楼

现在是凌晨三点钟
喝了点酒头有点痛
寂寞的烟点燃空虚的夜
暂时把心放空
你晾的床单忘了收
没烫的衬衫有点皱
明天开始我将如何面对
没有你的以后

在家里还留着你的衣服和散不掉的熟悉味道。。。

那些美好的画面反复在播送
但心破碎了之后
要怎么去拼凑
baby baby
love can be so beautiful
只怪那一刻
话说得太重
所有的情节都失控
baby baby
love should be so beautiful
你给的太多
现在我才懂
只有烟和酒陪伴的
凌晨三点钟 
 

对不起，是我给得太多。。是我让自己投入你所谓的幸福里。。我们，真的有幸福过吗？
 

现在是凌晨三点钟
喝了点酒头有点痛
你晾的床单忘了收
没烫的衬衫有点皱
明天开始我将如何面对
没有你的以后 
 

你的另一个她又开始向我炫耀你们的爱。。。sorry babe, i don't think i need to know.. you may keep it for yourself..

六个月后的那年。。你们俩把我当成垃圾桶~~就因为她终于要正式结婚了而他没了她。。
 

凌乱的房间里头
还留着你的香味
怎么也戒不掉你独特的笑容
如果时钟倒着走
我不会再让你走
有些事情要绝望到底
才能看得透

果然，好马不吃回头草。。但，我不是一匹好马。。。结果啊~~~现在伤了自己。。。
怎么收拾？

. selfishness .

i admit i am selfish. quite a selfish one, when it comes to sharing my boyfriend with others.

why is it that when you mentioned that place, you did not tell me you were going till after you bloody well paid the money?

i'm pissed. i'm angry. i feel left out. do you know how it feels when your girlfriend travels without you? have her own holiday without you? i guess you don't. because i invited you for every trip. how stupid can i be?

am i the kind of girlfriend where you can only show to your family and not friends or colleagues?

why the hell did i introduced my friends to you in the first place then?

i'm hard to please, i admit. i'm a bitch, i admit. i can't be without you, well, i fucking admit it. otherwise, i wouldn't be such a fool to come back to you..

no more trips with YOU. you can enjoy your holidays with your gang of colleagues; whom i've never seen before, nor you having the courtesy to even mention their names to me or even introduce them to me.

i ain't invisible. if you treat as i am that way, FINE! i will be invisible from you from now onwards.

sometimes, it makes me wonder, why the hell am i eating my own words now? of me telling myself, being with you will just hurt me one day or another.

i'm just so pissed at the moment. tell me how can i trust you when you lied to me so badly long time ago? how can i trust you when i can't even trust myself?

fuck it.

i'm bloody well gonna enjoy my trip my own.

i hate being without you.

i hate you when you never even have the courtesy to ask me if i wanted to join.

i'm fucking gonna be too freaking busy to even see you for the next few weeks.

enjoy your weekends with them.

i'm trying to not be bothered bout what you do anymore.

argh!

*pulls her hair~*