. marriage .

it's sometimes so sad to see wedded couples split.. especially when both are your friends.

*sighs*

it takes me into a darker side of my thoughts.. that marriage scares me and all these.

commitment.. trust, sincerity and care.

I, (name), take you, (name), to be my [opt: lawfully wedded] (husband/wife), my constant friend, my faithful partner and my love from this day forward. In the presence of God, our family and friends, I offer you my solemn vow to be your faithful partner in sickness and in health, in good times and in bad, and in joy as well as in sorrow. I promise to love you unconditionally, to support you in your goals, to honor and respect you, to laugh with you and cry with you, and to cherish you for as long as we both shall live

lies? or a fall through of commitment. too many people around me ...

relationships falling apart.

where then has 'unconditional love' gone to? was there even such existence?

looking at some old couples I pass by. arms around each other. that beautiful smile or just a simple nod, shows much sincerity and love. so much envy filling inside of me.

which then i start to doubt myself and that future us.

if all sorrows and pain can be washed away from our memories by alcohol. i shall then embrace the love for alcohol and indulge in those moments.... never looking at sorrow and pain. what will life be then?

how i wish....and still know that life will never be the same...